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When I was asked if I had heard Billie Eilish's new song for the Barbie movie I can honestly say that I haven't. I realized that other than Pandora's 80s music I have been very selective in what I have listened to as of the last year or so. The only time I listened to anything current was when I listened to 3mindblight https://www.youtube.com/@3MindBlight
Dorsten Music https://www.youtube.com/channel/UCZ1HXeaHMhufukZkjYNLE0g
Whitney Miller https://www.youtube.com/@whitneymillerofficial
OR
Vylana https://www.youtube.com/@Vylana and a couple of other singers.
I decided to listen to her song and then Iwatched the #barbiemovie but I didn't really care for it but then again #barbie #ken and #barbiedolls have never been my thing. Don't get me wrong all of the cast did a great job. However, Billie's song gutted me, ripped me apart sat me down, and helped me put into words what I was struggling to feel over the last five and half years.
I suppose we have all felt that way after we have life changes. We go from being children to teenagers to adults and none of what takes place fits in the new places. There is a grieving period that must take place but rarely does because we are trying to hold onto what was even though it no longer exists.
I have had many changes in my life but none of them were as drastic as losing my husband. I have felt lost and confused. I didn't know who I was without him or where I even belonged. Who knew what was next for me because I sure didn't know how I felt about any of it. You think you know but life becomes quite complicated and mashes it up into nasty little knots of WTFs.
We have many titles in life and I am all of those things and so much more. I have been scared about where I am heading. Will I dwindle into a pile of dust? What does life have in store for me next and am I up to the challenge? Will I remain single? Will I find myself eeking out an existence that does not honor who I am at heart? It's okay to ask ourselves the hard questions and to listen to what comes up. It's also okay to surrender and ask for help.
I am too much of a believer and knower in magick, manifesting, love, blessings, and miracles to throw in the towel and believe there is nothing left for me. I may not know exactly where I fit anymore or where I am going but I can use the power of my mind and heart to create the life of my dreams.
You see I would love to build the home of my dreams, to continue on my journey anchoring my light and love from my Sacred Heart, and to invite in a mate that I can grow old with and create many things into this world making it a better place for as many as possible.
So while we must honor our feelings that does not mean anything is set in stone. It is up to us to decide what we are going to do with the power of our minds and hearts working hand in hand with each other. Imagine what you can create as a Sovereign being reigning from your Sacred Heart. Your kingdom will flourish and so will the world around you and I look forward to that. I hope this blog inspires you to call into existence what you would like to show up next for you and to have faith in what you are asking for and know your Divine Team will do everything in their power to make it happen.
I close this blog out by listening to Billie's song. I imagine it is one I will return to often when I am not sure where I am going, how to feel, or what is next for me.
Love BellaRayne